Where am I going?

 There is no greater difference between men than between grateful and ungrateful people.

 I have found that empowerment in life is about simply looking at what is happening for you instead of what is happening to you.

It is so easy to be influenced by our environment. It takes a strong person to say no, or step outside the crowd. Is it this that can throw us off life’s path?

I am a believer in fate. Don’t ask me to define fate because I think it can mean many things to many people. For me it’s like destiny. Some might say it is just coincidence, but I think it is much more than that. I believe that certain points in our lives are pre-ordained. What I am not sure about is how flexible these points are. I also believe that we are being guided along the path of life by something, but I am not sure what. Along that path are crossroads, junctions where I have to make choices. Wouldn’t it be nice if I always made the right choices? Unfortunately I am sure that this is not always the case.

I have been in situations where I have had to make a conscious decision. Do I do this or do I do that? In a way they are the easy decisions to make. There are only two choices laid out plainly in front of me. One of them has to be right. It’s a 50/50 chance, and, if I choose wrong one the chances are that I can go back if I change my mind. Chocolate cake or banana? Hey sometimes life sucks and I have to choose the banana. Why can’t I always have chocolate cake? Why can’t I have the pleasure of eating chocolate cake and the health benefit of eating the banana? If I could make that happen I think I would be well on the way to becoming a millionaire. Now wouldn’t that be a choice to make?

But often the decisions in my life are not so straight forward. It may not even be clear that there is a decision to make. I also think that there have been times in my life where I have not made the decisions that on reflection I should have made. Often it is only the consequence that finally draws my attention to the fact that something has gone wrong. What or where I do not know. If I was to try and reason, what or where, it would be like unravelling knotted string.

I also believe that if or when I make a wrong decision, the consequences will make me pay, that the difficulties that result from that decision, become far reaching. Whatever it is that is guiding my route through life, leaves sign posts allowing me to switch to the right path again. I am sure that the right path is always banana and I so much enjoy chocolate cake.

Each time I meet one of those sign posts, especially for the same wrong decision, the bigger and louder they get. Eventually there is no ignoring them and I get forced to stop and stare the obvious in the face. By this time the banana is rotten and inedible, but somehow I have to find a way of swallowing it. Do something Nina, and do it right this time!

What are your sign posts in life? How rotten are your bananas? Do you get to eat them all fresh?

Nina Waite